Shadowing Spirit

 To truly approach the Godhead your will must evolve. You must become the ever-changing Magician that is the Hand of God, the Holy Ghost Amen, which I call Spirit. You must abandon as a central principle the laws of common sense, of conventional wisdom, so that the seemingly unconventional Spirit will remain with you to the point that it's will becomes yours and you become the Magician, the Shaman, and the Spiritual Inspirant, the Acolyte. The Spirit employs conventional wisdom routinely while coming from a place deeply beyond it. It is this deeper Faith that the Acolyte must utilize to keep pace with the wiles of the Dancing Shepard. To go to the other side and remain, to live in and from the Spirit world, where sight and Spirit are continually awakened. 

To move forward on the spiritual path, one must break free of the limiting perspectives and attitudes of a conventional ego. This ego must die so that Spirit can rule the autonomy of the individual. The spiritualized individual life becomes the awakened Soul, a God-centered personality and force of will and being. The Spirit and the Soul are dead in the sense that they are the life after death of mortal consciousness, the conventional ego. Not dead in the sense that they are immortal life. 

When the ego dies, or begins to die, Spiritual consciousness awakens. The hard matter universe dissolves as one realizes matter is a state of mind dependent on material dominated consciousness, not an objective reality. In death one is reborn as a Spiritual being. This inner being becomes dominant once the ego sheath dissolves sufficiently. The universe becomes a place of subtle energy dominated by the ever-present will and power of Spirit. 

To move on the individual must learn to navigate in the waters of Spirit, to understand and interpret the will and voice of Spirit in the Spirit world. This place is a place of processing one's former life to ascertain its spiritual value. It is this processing that powers the spiritual transformation to a Shadow Walker, one who shadows Spirit. From our lives, we glean spiritual truths that further awaken our consciousness. Our lives on Earth prepare us to understand the Spiritual nature of the Universe. Through many incarnations we discover the Spirit behind each form and each intent. 

As a Shadow Walker, we move in the Darkness behind life in which the Spiritual Hand of God is hidden. A Hand that omnisciently directs the subtle energies that create the world we inhabit. All these expressions and energies are ultimate manifestations of Spirit, a dynamic play of Spirit that is the fullest extent, the universe of form: Creation. Our experiences are subtly woven together by unseen energies conditioned to weave by the exact impression of our karmic signature, ceaselessly vibrating to the frequency of of our individualized wills. The content of our consciousness determines the subtle frequency of our will which ceaselessly acts and ceaselessly triggers karmic law to respond accordingly. The exact frequency of our will  is always a hidden request, a subtle order to the Universe, to change the reality or energies we experience according to the energetic frequency of our request. This is largely not fully conscious programming on our own part of the reality/consciousness/energy we experience. 

To be an Acolyte, is to seek greater consciousness of this energetic connection between our will and  the universal law of karma, not to gain for themself , but to strengthen their connection with Spirit so their spiritual consciousness can more deeply awaken. The more one is aware of this process, the more they can recognize the behavior they have that keeps their consciousness imprisoned, and the behavior that liberates it. For the Soul, the Spiritual self, recognizes the hellish nature of material minded consciousness, one full of inherent suffering and ignorance of the Spiritual nature of reality that brings fulfillment to the Soul.  An acolyte seeks to see Spirit in everything all of the time and to see exactly how the subtle law of cause and effect operates so that they can implement it to erase their karmic debts to free their soul from material consciousness. 

One thing I notice is how subtle energies ebb and flow like the tide of the ocean, and stream like flowing waters. If we can recognize these currents and patterns we can learn to move with them more efficiently. We can anticipate what is coming and prepare for it. By sensing Spirit in this flow we can best orient ourselves, for the will of Spirit is exact and the single power we can fully trust. When we don't have a good read on Spirit, we are lost whether or not we realize it. Thus it is most important to shadow spirit, to keep right by it so we can follow it at a moments notice. To lose Spirit is to lose our spiritual connection and the life of our soul, which fucking sucks. We must learn to change our behavior so we are reborn in spiritual habits in each environment we encounter. And when we are lost, always get back on the trail. 

Spirit is impossible to find in the dead thinking that our conventional ego clings to for life support. It is found in fresh thinking that is fearless and innovative. It's movement is also spontaneous, even when it is carrying out something long planned. Thinking and movement becomes dead when it loses connection to the source, at this point it should be immediately discarded. If we have lost fresh and dynamic movement and thinking, we have lost the trail of Spirit and our efforts will not bear fruit. The Spiritual path requires us to exorcise all dead thinking and behavior so we have a vital connection to Spirit. We must learn to discriminate between accurate and inaccurate readings of situations, taking the time to rejuvenate our mental and perceptory faculties. 

We don't have to wait to act, we always have the power to just act. If we sit to long in one space our connection will become stagnant. A Spiritual life demands movement. It demands flow. Spirit is also always present within us, in the stillness of our Soul. We can't find it outside of ourselves, it is only outside once we have found it within and we see Spirit in the world and in ourselves. Spirit is also intimately tied with Soul, so it should be fun and joyful. It should bring you a deep and abiding happiness. Do not be deceived by the world. The delusion of ego distorts the spiritual truth of Spirit and Soul, which are readily found within oneself. The true nature of the exterior world is a reflection of the content of our own Soul and it is in this reflection that we must deal with it if we wish to have real success in this life. There are no other people, just other Souls and expressions of the same Spirit that we are apart of. Spirit will always bring us peace and mercy when we return to it. It simply wants us to follow it, because it is an expression of God's infinite love. We don't move forward by going ahead, but by going within. 

Spirit is truly all around us, always with us, all of the time. In a measure beyond our imagining. With a Love so powerful. It is always within reach, always where we are. And we always have enough because God has always set in store enough for us. Let me believe in Thee Oh Divine Lord that I may have the Strength to Follow Thee Always. We do not need fear one bit, for the power of God is with us and informs all that is. Thou Art Here Always. Thou Art the Lord God. 

Will you be my Shaman Stone?

Soul Power 4

 We have many relationships in life. We also have many concerns. We have many desires, and we have many feelings. We prioritize what we do based off what we understand to be most important to us. We can go many lifetimes focused on the experience or attainment of specific things that are important to us. We can spend any number of lifetimes fully immersed in the lives we have on Earth and the unique circumstances we find ourselves in. We are always working towards something, getting something, being something, or someone. What is the point of all this interest and all of this effort? Have we ever stopped to look at what really makes us happy? I don't think many of us can look this deeply because we are wholly immersed in our own lives, so immersed that we cannot step back to truly perceive the wisdom of our ways. If one could they may think twice about getting lost again in their individual life and forgetting about their soul. In our Earth lives, we often are incognizant of the life of our soul and of it's greater journey that continues when we die and continues throughout our many incarnations on this Earth. While alive on Earth in a physical body, we fail to see beneath the surface of our material sense perceptions to the subtle astral reality underpinning every material movement. We fail to see this reality, and the even deeper reality of the soul and God. The soul may enjoy the life we live, but it knows that God is the single answer to it's existence. It knows that worldliness is temporary and that the wisdom of Yoga is singularly supreme. Yoga simply as the science of and path to God-Union. I write to express my passionate urging to all souls to wake up to the deeper reality of their existence so they may set their priorities in order. It is a fact that the world that most of us perceive (the world as worldliness) as the Buddha says, is equivalent to suffering. This only makes sense when one sees that what we experience as sense pleasure is in fact always tied to pain and suffering. Even more so, it always keeps us in a state of suffering, even if we are not very aware of it. Worldliness is suffering because while the world is our God, we will always experience a sense of separateness and the void, the anxiety, the terrible fear, and upset that it brings. To be a separate thing, is to always be in a state of war. The unknown provokes fear, ignorance provokes uncertainty and total inability to possess true wisdom. So full of lust we are for sense fulfillment, the fruit of desire, that my interjections are those to be scorned. We cannot serve two masters, both God and Goodness, and selfish desire. We cannot do so and permanently succeed in our endeavors. Desire and ambition blind our eyes to reason and without reason, without Light, we are prey to whatever may come our way. Selfishness, ambition, and pride cause us to overlook what we should not and believe in ourselves far more than we ought to. 

There is another life we may have if we recognize this wisdom and possess the strength and courage to turn to it. Instead of living in constant anxiety, we can trust God. God can become the pillar of our life. Not sometimes, but always. We may let go of our attempt to serve ourselves through the pursuit of worldly security and worldly wisdoms, and we can serve our soul and become a devotee to God in which we serve everyone and everything. If we wish to do so, we must understand who we are and the way in which we give up the life we have for something greater. We have to understand why this is important. If we don't know who we are that we won't be able to let it go to embrace a higher way. If we don't know what we really want, that we won't be able to let go of what we want to be free to serve God. To pass through, one must open the door all the way, not just a little. One must be keenly interested in the true nature of reality. So interested that they put this pursuit above all else. Our soul and God are always here, one must knock to receive an answer. 

soul power 3

 Energies have shifted back towards Aum heavily today. Had a really nice day. I really would like to be more guided by God. I feel like so much of what I do is unguided and turbulent. I feel like I often don't have the best self control when it comes to how I interact with other people. I feel like I don't behave very wisely often and can blunder about. I would like to be very mindful of God when I speak to other people. I would also like to be more mindful of God when I interact with myself. I can be unkind and impatient. I rush around which causes me to be disoriented and out of touch. I feel that I can be a lot more in touch with God. I think this will bring me the energy I need to be successful in life. I think the energy will come from navigating wisely through inspiration from the Holy Ghost. I do not think our lives need to be as overwhelming as they often are. I think what we often lack is the proper outlook and the consequent proper attitude. When we look to God instead of the world for the solution to our problems and we look to God to guide us and are willing to trust in His wisdom then I think we will profit. Behaving worldly doesn't seem to lead to any good long term results. It seems to set us up for failure. God wants us to overcome selfishness and turn to the Light. He wants us to rise above our circumstances and choose a life of service and spiritual seeking. He wants us to seek Him and serve Him out of our own free will because it is the right thing to do. When we do this, I think he uplifts our spirit and the way becomes clear before us. I think this is what we are really looking for. The right way. How to behave wisely. How interesting such a thing may become so distorted. 

It seems as though half of this spiritual path comes to us through grace and not by our own doing. We cannot force Gods hand, we cannot force ourselves to live spiritually. It seems to come by itself and through Divine intersession. It is a path to follow when we see it, not one we can cling to of our own power. It seems to me that the soul is born of selfishness, that it's light is born of ignorance. The way of the soul is not through individual strength, but through selfless release. I think it comes from letting go of our personal power and gaining strength as a soul in divine communion. The power is not our own, but power given to us by God to do His work. We merely are vessels of His power. God takes care of everything really. It isn't our responsibility to worry over how things are managed. It is our responsibility to make ourselves capable of receiving His will so that it may be carried out on Earth. He wants us to give ourselves to Him, to return to Him. It may sound silly or old-fashioned, but it's real. I think so many of us are so preoccupied with ourselves and this material world that this notion is unapproachable and meaningless. If it is understood, I think it is vaguely so. To really understand this, I think you have to be reborn in the Light in your heart and soul. You have to die to your old self. This is profound. It's not one foot in, one foot out. It's all in. So many beautiful things I have seen in the Universe. All are apart of the same Light. The One Light. All is the Light. Awakening Light. 

This is what we really are. We are not our identities, our bodies nor our minds. We are simply Light. That is here and now. I forgot this is who I am. It has always been who I am, and who I will always be. 

Soul Power 2

 Endless beginnings, endless endings. Endless beginning, endless ending. There is nothing other than this moment. We cannot change how things are now, for this moment is change itself. Any change that is produced here is an illusion. Emptiness remains emptiness. There is nothing we can gain, nor anything we can lose. Regardless of what we do, nothing is achieved. The road remains empty. All form is immaterial. Regardless of personal attitude, thought, or inclination, regardless of experience, there is no self to be found, there is nothing to be affected. We can hold onto nothing. We are nothing. What brings this moment into being? What makes this moment as it is? Is there anything else? This is a self-producing moment. Without shape, it is self-contained. Without moving, movement arises. Form appears out of nothingness. Form is an expression of nothing. Form is nothingness. Nothingness is form. self is selfless. Ego, egoless. Where is there no emptiness? Who is responsible for suffering? Nothing can we build on anything. Attempting nothing, we are freed from the prison of doing, and of being. Wisdom comes from recognizing our inability to make any positive changes. There is nothing to be amended. It is the illusion of self that perpetuates suffering. Recognizing impermanence, recognizing the unattainable. That each moment is unconditioned. This is the truth. A truth that manifests with the dissolution of conditioned consciousness. It is self that brings suffering to humankind. It is realization of impermanence that ends this conditioned self in human minds. Without self their is no suffering. This realization leads to compassion for living beings. It reveals the way to enlightenment and the nature of conditioned suffering. Knowing this allows us to organize ourselves wisely, according to how things are. Without resistance, in accordance with natural law, utilizing natural law for the greatest benefit of sentient beings. Knowing how things are, we may govern ourselves effectively. Buddha! Glory to Buddha and Enlightenment! Amen! Amen! AUM!!!

Soul Power

 Me? Going through changes?? Still!?? Lol. Oh well. You get what you get and you don't throw a fit. I am going through what appears to be greater clarity and maturity, albeit in an unforeseen direction. I don't think I moved on in the way I thought I did from ego-impulsive worldliness. I definitely didn't. I was leaning into blue conformist, but it was still worldly. Then orange rational, though still worldly. I was deepening my understanding of Aum and then Christ or Dharma, but not moving into them as much as I thought. I don't think I managed to move my center when I thought I had. I didn't fully understand how I was changing at the time. I still don't understand those movements. I think largely I was looking into how the universe operated. I was studying how we evolve away form a worldly life. I think I do understand a lot of how this works now. To really progress, you have to become a servant of the Light. A true Yogi or Shaman. Whose master is God, I think expressed though communion with the Holy Ghost. This relationship is the essence of a Yogi and of a Shaman. One's purpose is the purpose that this Light reveals to them through their intuitive eye. In this way, purpose becomes spiritualized, uplifted. Life becomes the life of the soul awakening in communion with God as the Light and Vibration of the Holy Ghost within creation. One turns away from the worldly life in their very essence. I didn't understand this transformation. I think I am beginning to. I didn't clearly see the core of who I was. I was and am still moving into this clarity. This God is truly Spirit. The Great Spirit. That rides highest in the sky and is responsible for the play and change of life. I was an aspiring sorcerer of darkness, and I did not fully understand the Light. I tried to be both of the Light and the darkness at the same time. This broke me in two again and again. Spirit let me break my body on the rocks so that I would eventually see the truth. There is only one God and it is not Satan. The heavenly star points upwards. If you really want to ascend, you have to choose in your soul to become a servant of this Light which is only possible through sacrificing the life you have. Then God will truly become your Master, and the way will open before you.

I think God does have a purpose for each one of us. He knows who we are and what we have on our minds. He sends us where we go, to prepare us for what we will encounter in the future. Also to deal with what we have encountered in the past. He gives us the chance to redeem ourselves and choose a higher path. In this way He is the door opener. We relive the same moments, over and over again. We add new layers of experience and depth of feeling, that ultimately awaken our soul feeling, our memory of our origination beyond this world. God wants us to return to the Light and to our deeper purpose. He wants us to remember and re-awaken as we have countless times before. The perfect hand of God lies forever in the background of Creation, the hidden doer. It's chaos may be deeply disturbing and confounding, but only to the untrained eye. This is the illusion he casts that blinds the uninitiated. Behind the veil is the timeless peace and tranquility of a perfectly ordered Universe, a door that remains closed to those consumed with the thirst of worldly desire. The chains of sense desire and sense fulfillment. How few see while living that this is a prison of evil. Which corrupts all that is good. You truly cannot have a little of one and a little of the other. There is no such balance. A little desire will always have the potential to temp one into greater desire and greater darkness. There is no limit to the distance one can fall. The only security lies in total sacrifice of what we cling to. Willingness to let go. When we can let go, we are free to do God's work. This is according to the natural harmony of the universe. It is selfless and for the benefit of all. 

I didn't realize that I have been preparing for this path. I didn't see how. I have been slowly and steadily turning towards the Light, being prepared to carry it. All this pain had a purpose. Now it can be something beautiful. 

God wants us to move forward with our lives. So that our experience may deepen. As souls we are God continually expanding into life on Earth and in Heaven. God wishes to forever awaken to new experience. To reach endlessly outwards and expand itself. As we go up and as we go below, we are the endless experience of creative expression of God becoming the universe, discovering itself. This is what soul is. 

The Dharma

 Life is created out of thin air. The Dharma is the power that creates this life. It is life itself. We may have many ideas about what life is because life has many forms and qualities. What is the root of all of these forms and aspects of life? This is what life really is, this is what the Dharma is. At it's root life is an overflowing abundance of vital life energy. It is undivided and undying. Individual beings are born from this and are One with it. We forget our Oneness as the result of the formation of conditioned consciousness within the individualized being. When we can sufficiently still the mental activity of this conditioned consciousness, this inner unity of life becomes apparent. It is an undivided field of being, a Oneness. This is where we come from and who we are. This is what the Dharma is. A Oneness of all life, of creation. Life creates itself. The Dharma manifests and sustains itself. It is perfect: without flaw or stain. It contains all life forms and simultaneously is all life forms. It is One consciousness living in all consciousnesses, all minds as One mind eternally in this moment. If we look carefully at our own consciousness, this is what we will find wherever we look. It is the true nature and reality of every aspect of our being. Simply put, this is it. It is not something to be known through conceptualization, or through the intellect by identifying it among many other forms. One must step outside of the intellect to perceive it. To perceive it directly, is to know it. Attempts to hold it through mental processes will fail. The correct way is to quiet these mental processes in a way that we step totally outside of them. This is not prior to the intellect, it is post-intellect. So it is not discovered through depressing our normal consciousness with drugs or other methods. It is not animal physicality that is instinctual prior to thought. It is through thought it a way that fulfills thought so that it's processing is no longer necessary. Truly, the aim of all thought is to produce this consciousness or awareness. Although it appears that thought gets in the way, it is truly through harnessing the power of the mind that we discover our true dharma-nature. When the dharma is awakening within us, our aim is to properly direct our attention, which often strays because of thought. This makes thought appear to be our enemy. Really what we are doing when we properly direct our attention, is turn our mind, which is One with these thoughts, to something that is more useful. I find that it is healthy to be mindful of what I am thinking and to allow these thoughts to play out. This mentation eventually leads to the dharma. When we seek to annihilate thinking, we repress our bodies natural processing, which is unnecessary. If we are patient and allow this process to unfold, it will blossom into enlightenment. If we recognize where we are along the path, we can refrain from excessive control over our being. By allowing our self to be with non-attachment, mindful of the true nature of our being, we will pass through the various stages of enlightenment. Fixation and attachment are born of desire and delusion. Nothing is worth clinging to, not even the purifying of our mind. No state of mind is worth clinging to. All states of mind are equally Buddha. Cultivating this non-attachment is the highest dharma. Even as we are called to perform many things, this should be at the forefront of our attention. Nothing to gain, nothing to lose. No reason to be attached to anything. Non-attachment to whatever arises in this moment. What is arises within our consciousness is independence of Spirit. It doesn't matter who we are or who we become. Our true nature is independent of what arises in this moment. This independence is what brings us peace, not any particular thing that we can identify with. The conditioned sense of self wishes to build up itself with a host of things that provide it security and gratification. It believes these things are good and that this behavior is reasonable. It believes in this world very strongly. What truly makes us happy is not acquiring or achieving any of this, rather by ridding ourselves of all of these shells that cover up are inner radiance. The conditioned mind creates endless ways to perpetuate this. This is why this way of behaving must be dropped altogether to wake up. Until we understand this as readily as we understand that this cup right here is full of water, we will persist in distracting ourselves with dysfunctional substitutes. We will remain thirsty, regardless of how hard we try and drink from the cup. It will always remain just outside of our reach. When we think about the act of turning to Christ, we may think of this as a great feat of moral strength. This may true, but it misses the fact that turning to the Dao or the Dharma, to Jesus, is also just an act of simple practicality. When something doesn't work, try something else. 

Where has the Dharma gone?

 Where has the Dharma gone off to? Try as we may, we won't find it in pig pens. When we tire of toiling in the mud we may be ready to look for something real. The fresh air blowing in from abroad is much more pleasant than this reek. Emboldened by the act of looking up, we eventually resolve to make an exit. Linger as we may at the edge of what we know, the wilderness offers irresistible excitement and promise.

 To find the Dharma, we have to go out and look for it. This means going out from ourselves, going out from what we know. We have to put that life behind us and be willing to do something completely different. We have to leave behind our normal way of seeing, feeling and thinking. When we step outside of the box, we find ourselves exactly where we are. In some way we have to study the Dharma before we can step into it.  When we are acclimated, the door will open. 

What can we say of the Dharma? The Dharma awakes the mind and the soul to the true nature of reality. Self-centeredness closes the door while furious determination opens it. The Dharma is the true nature of our self. It is from where life springs forth. To know who we are and what is real we must give up our lives for the sake of this greater life. Once we step through the door we realize this is where we have always been. The Dharma is simply here. It is what here is. Whenever we go searching for it, we can't seem to find it. Whenever we stop and see exactly where we are, we find we have already arrived. Human consciousness naturally becomes dissatisfied with close-mindedness and begins looking for the truth. The truth naturally awakens within our consciousness and we naturally realize that it is already here. Nothing else exists. Pin the tail on the donkey! We do have to go and look for it even if the search is pointless. It is simply apart of the awakening process. As the Dharma awakens, the mind will naturally be cleansed of stupidity....😄🔫 There is no fucking point, but what can we do about it?

 The mind is addicted to striving towards an end. The Dharma doesn't blossom through this activity. It happens when this activity ceases. We also can't get to this blossoming through this mental chatter. There is no action we can take that we can guarantee will bring about this blossoming. Our behavior must be charged with the Dharma to bring about the Dharma. It doesn't matter what we do, it matters how we do it. This is why when we are looking, we have to step outside of the normal. Our normal way of doing things is impossibly infested with striving and is no good. It's only use is as fuel for change. When we recognize that the way we have been trying to go is without a doubt hopeless, we will be in a position to try something else. We will have exhausted all methods for striving and we will realize that at it's core, striving is simply not going to open up this door. At this point we want to open the door more than we want to persist in our habitual way of doing and living and being. So we take a chance, a very remarkable chance, and the whole world spins.